A Dissection of A Dream

Today I had a short but an insightful discussion with a close friend of mine; Amira, and it was about a dream she had. I won’t talk about the dream itself, but about two concepts that emerged from it. The first concept is that a woman’s beauty comes mainly from her sense of worthiness; her inner belief that she deserves the best and it’s not wrong to have it. It’s true that when a woman “feels” beautiful she has every chance of dazzling the world with her presence, and the contrary applies. When she was telling me the dream, she wasn’t feeling that she didn’t deserve its events; she felt entitled. I, on the other hand, felt that I’d never dare to have the same dream in my own “dreams” because I don’t have as much self worthiness as she does. Although very close people around me told me and keep telling me I have a rare potential to be a special person, I don’t hold the same idea about myself. It’s true that this is sometimes due to a desire to be humble and not give my ego the chance to manifest itself; I’m a LEO after all, and LEOs tend to feel certain greatness about them. But this feeling is mostly due to a deep feeling of being “wrong”, meaning that I always question my judgment, my ideas, and my capabilities. On the rare occasions when I let my trust in me rise, I harvested very good impressions from people, but I don’t let my self-trust shine all the time; maybe because I’m a coward (a colleague told me when I said I’m a coward that I’m totally wrong and she believes I’m much braver than I think I am!).
The second concept is that women choose in their course of life to either marry men who can provide financial security or marry men who provide “emotional” security. At first, we joked about which choice is smarter and that we are stupid or “wesh fa2r” to make the second choice, but when we elaborated on the matter further I found out that when a woman makes the first choice; she chooses to satiate the material needs which will never be satiated. On the other side; when a woman makes the second choice; she chooses to satiate mental and emotional needs, which can be fulfilled even with the least of nice gestures from a man, she chooses to live a happy life, not a lavish life. (Wouldn’t it be great if she can have both?!!)
Of course, a stupid woman can choose a man who has neither, and I don’t see a reason on earth to make a woman do that unless she wants just to get by in life and not live it. I don’t wish this fate to any woman…